Purpose

My mother told me today

That her husband was first her friend

Then her lover, then my father

So as I sat and heard her say

That no matter where his path was lead

His purpose became us, together

And my mother's words struck deep into my heart

As the thoughts of you filled my head

I know that I found my way

I'm waiting for my life to start

I know what I see up ahead

And the only thing I want to say

is...

I love you.

So I contemplate my next step

And I consider the angles

As if it could be my last

The fears of life, into my head crept

But I know the truth about my angel

And from her radiant light, her love is cast

And with that love and grace

I hold on to all that I've come to know of her

And cherish the time we share

I close my eyes to see your face

And it gives me that feeling assured

But fear still being there that I'm scared

that...

I need you.

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Remember Me...

We stood in that doorway
As the switch fell

Light turned to dark
You pulled me close and kissed me

All of the world was forgotten
Your lips were like honey

I held you close
The seconds turned to minutes

I wanted nothing more
Never to let go of your grasp

Hold on to the thought
Something more and real

I told you just a kiss
Pursuing not your body

Of all things desired
A moment together again

Yet a kiss was all
I asked and you gave

Yet I could have taken hold
Held you down in lust

Knowing you would have given
Your body was a temple to me

I could not disgrace my temple
Tearing at threads and buttons

All the while wanting more
Knowing that kiss was the last

Now I lay me down alone
You would never share my bed again

A piece of my life is gone
A chapter writen and torn out

The knowledge of you being home again
Close enough to bring you back

For why would I bring back
What does not want me anymore

All was only a short while
Knowing you needed help

I could not give you peace
Only attempt to comfort

Never enough to keep you near
Leaving the scent and feel of you

The memory of your beautiful body
Laying in my arms through the night

The only good thing left in me
Engulfing my days in pain

I miss you here and now
But I am just a faint star in your sky

Burning out in time
Left to implode in my own space

Remember me
Please...

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Valentines Day 07

When

Intoxicated memories left by a careless heart
A meaningless fling of two bodies wrapped in drugs
As you move away you show no remorse
Leaving whats left of a fragile man, torn apart

The feeling of knowning that I was a good escape
A few kind words, a few packs, a few laughs
Still wishing I knew the key to get inside
What did I miss, where did I go wrong, a total mistake

And to think that I put in so much, to get so little
To be left here alone knowing that she will call
Just for a lift, a few more points, a few more rides
And all in all its just a big mess with me in the middle

You scream out for help and talk of wanting it all to end
The moment someone trys to help you close off like a vault
Scared of the moment, of the feeling, what is it?
To be hurting, to be yurning, yet love can not bend

And through it all I will be there again and again
I will sit and listen, and boil it down amd stake it in
I will try and try and try only to drown
In self defeat and loathing wondering when... when... when...

Lost

Lost in a sea of thought on a ship made of space and a paddle of time, I wander. Floating trough a colorless world, wanting nothing more than a few hours away from surreal nature of this place, away from the fragments of images, I lie. As the waves rock my boat, splashes of memories and to-be's enter my vessel, weighing me down like iron chains clad to my shoulders and neck. But I venture on, without moving, without feeling, without being. And as the waves crash and pull my ship one way and another, the splashes turn to puddles and overwhelm me. This is where I lay me down; this is where all will be lost. Now, as I fall through this sea of thought, I drown in an empty void, only wanting to escape the one thing that I can not flee from... my own mind.

Acidic Dreams

Black as the color of night
Contrast the sparkel of some unknown light
The twinkeling of a star on the range
Leaves me with visage so strange
With the way the colors blend
Time begins to twist and bend
My perception of what is bona fide
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