Remember Me...

We stood in that doorway
As the switch fell

Light turned to dark
You pulled me close and kissed me

All of the world was forgotten
Your lips were like honey

I held you close
The seconds turned to minutes

I wanted nothing more
Never to let go of your grasp

Hold on to the thought
Something more and real

I told you just a kiss
Pursuing not your body

Of all things desired
A moment together again

Yet a kiss was all
I asked and you gave

Yet I could have taken hold
Held you down in lust

Knowing you would have given
Your body was a temple to me

I could not disgrace my temple
Tearing at threads and buttons

All the while wanting more
Knowing that kiss was the last

Now I lay me down alone
You would never share my bed again

A piece of my life is gone
A chapter writen and torn out

The knowledge of you being home again
Close enough to bring you back

For why would I bring back
What does not want me anymore

All was only a short while
Knowing you needed help

I could not give you peace
Only attempt to comfort

Never enough to keep you near
Leaving the scent and feel of you

The memory of your beautiful body
Laying in my arms through the night

The only good thing left in me
Engulfing my days in pain

I miss you here and now
But I am just a faint star in your sky

Burning out in time
Left to implode in my own space

Remember me
Please...

5:30AM
Valentines Day 07

When

Intoxicated memories left by a careless heart
A meaningless fling of two bodies wrapped in drugs
As you move away you show no remorse
Leaving whats left of a fragile man, torn apart

The feeling of knowning that I was a good escape
A few kind words, a few packs, a few laughs
Still wishing I knew the key to get inside
What did I miss, where did I go wrong, a total mistake

And to think that I put in so much, to get so little
To be left here alone knowing that she will call
Just for a lift, a few more points, a few more rides
And all in all its just a big mess with me in the middle

You scream out for help and talk of wanting it all to end
The moment someone trys to help you close off like a vault
Scared of the moment, of the feeling, what is it?
To be hurting, to be yurning, yet love can not bend

And through it all I will be there again and again
I will sit and listen, and boil it down amd stake it in
I will try and try and try only to drown
In self defeat and loathing wondering when... when... when...

Lost

Lost in a sea of thought on a ship made of space and a paddle of time, I wander. Floating trough a colorless world, wanting nothing more than a few hours away from surreal nature of this place, away from the fragments of images, I lie. As the waves rock my boat, splashes of memories and to-be's enter my vessel, weighing me down like iron chains clad to my shoulders and neck. But I venture on, without moving, without feeling, without being. And as the waves crash and pull my ship one way and another, the splashes turn to puddles and overwhelm me. This is where I lay me down; this is where all will be lost. Now, as I fall through this sea of thought, I drown in an empty void, only wanting to escape the one thing that I can not flee from... my own mind.

Acidic Dreams

Black as the color of night
Contrast the sparkel of some unknown light
The twinkeling of a star on the range
Leaves me with visage so strange
With the way the colors blend
Time begins to twist and bend
My perception of what is bona fide
Enhanced by Lysergic Diethylamide

Lost Without You

Wading through an ocean of regret
Dwelling on the point we never should have met
Now your heart lies with another
I cringe at the thought that it is my brother
Left all alone, my mind begins to race
Liquid relief, powder escape, chemical haze, happy place

And as our bodies align
Through space and through time
A love I can not confide
A piece of me has just died

Crawling through concrete halls
Trying to escape these collapsing walls
Holding on to that reach for affection
Left to ponder the feel of rejection
So much between us, so much the same
Rolling the dice, losing hold of the game

And as our bodies align
Through space and through time
A love I can not confide
A piece of me has just died

Clenching the memory of your face
Wanting nothing more than to lose that trace
With all that is between who we are
How are you so unreachable, why so far
Now I whisper words that go unheard
Trying to make sense of something so obscured

And as our bodies align
Through space and through time
A love I can not confide
A piece of me has just died

-l0ckd0wn 8/18/06 7:00PM

Too Good To Be True

Just when it all come together
Just when everything fit
Just when you thought you're getting through
It was all just too good to be true

As the days blend together
As the time takes you on its Journey
As her words flow into you
It was all just too good to be true

Now I sit alone again
Now I wallow in my tears
Now as the sky is its brightest blue
It was all just too good to be true

There she waits for him
There he goes to her
There is the oppurtunity to pursue, but
It was all just too good to be true.

Tripping Over Mushrooms

I like the way you move, I like the way you feel
A piece of the puzzle, The way it makes you seem real
As though I was not there, Faraway in a sleep
Im on Venus today baby, leave a message at the beep

Dreamy fabrications
Fluid hallucinations
Mental intoxications
Chemical Fasinations

This is my vacation, You can't bother me here
A tropical ice storm, Unusual for this time of year
Blue and purple shimmers, Echoing sonic claps
Streaks of gold and orange, little mushroom caps

Mental Fabrications
Chemical hallucinations
Fluid intoxications
Dreamy fasinations

You seem to melt before me, as I reach through time
The walls are closing in, as I dig through my mind
The sky is made of rainbows, I'm riding the skylight
And as I fall off my love, I drift into the twilight.

Fluid fasinations
Chemical intoxication
Dreamy fabrications
Mental hallucinations