Remember Me...

We stood in that doorway
As the switch fell

Light turned to dark
You pulled me close and kissed me

All of the world was forgotten
Your lips were like honey

I held you close
The seconds turned to minutes

I wanted nothing more
Never to let go of your grasp

Hold on to the thought
Something more and real

I told you just a kiss
Pursuing not your body

Of all things desired
A moment together again

Yet a kiss was all
I asked and you gave

Yet I could have taken hold
Held you down in lust

Knowing you would have given
Your body was a temple to me

I could not disgrace my temple
Tearing at threads and buttons

All the while wanting more
Knowing that kiss was the last

Now I lay me down alone
You would never share my bed again

A piece of my life is gone
A chapter writen and torn out

The knowledge of you being home again
Close enough to bring you back

For why would I bring back
What does not want me anymore

All was only a short while
Knowing you needed help

I could not give you peace
Only attempt to comfort

Never enough to keep you near
Leaving the scent and feel of you

The memory of your beautiful body
Laying in my arms through the night

The only good thing left in me
Engulfing my days in pain

I miss you here and now
But I am just a faint star in your sky

Burning out in time
Left to implode in my own space

Remember me
Please...

5:30AM
Valentines Day 07

When

Intoxicated memories left by a careless heart
A meaningless fling of two bodies wrapped in drugs
As you move away you show no remorse
Leaving whats left of a fragile man, torn apart

The feeling of knowning that I was a good escape
A few kind words, a few packs, a few laughs
Still wishing I knew the key to get inside
What did I miss, where did I go wrong, a total mistake

And to think that I put in so much, to get so little
To be left here alone knowing that she will call
Just for a lift, a few more points, a few more rides
And all in all its just a big mess with me in the middle

You scream out for help and talk of wanting it all to end
The moment someone trys to help you close off like a vault
Scared of the moment, of the feeling, what is it?
To be hurting, to be yurning, yet love can not bend

And through it all I will be there again and again
I will sit and listen, and boil it down amd stake it in
I will try and try and try only to drown
In self defeat and loathing wondering when... when... when...